Holistic Nationalism and Bittersweet Patriotism TPS-0051

In my intellectual and spiritual journey, more and more, I feel like I've done a disservice to my country of birth. I always owe the first peoples who were genocided for this country to exist.

It doesn't go without saying it, it has to be said, and it should always be said. My first allegiance is to the first peoples and their legacy and their memory and the survivors of those never ending waves of genocide.

Second to that is a bitter sweet allegiance...relatively speaking.

I'm trying to develop for my own sense of well being a sort of holistic american pan ethnic nationalism psychology because rightly or wrongly the enemies of americans numbers are increasing they're not decreasing and I don't think it's cute or funny or strategic or snarky.

I don't think it's intelligent. I don't think it's sane or rational to side with anti Americanism, even if I have totally agreed with foreign policy critiques of US military hegemony and financial effery of all kinds.

I've worn that on my sleeve being a rebel but in context at this moment in history now that I have done more homework and invested more my personal time listening to a lot of the high ranking officials and analysts within the intelligence community.

So that I have a clue about how hard they work for me to be able to live in blissful ignorance, for all of us to live in blissful ignorance.

I continue on a daily basis to have more and more respect and deference to the intelligence community and the warrior elite who work very closely in maintaining the balance, not just of US hegemony.

All of the ways that I experience privilege and benefit from that as an American citizen, that are seen and unseen and classified and unclassified.

What keeps us out of multiple theaters of global war at all times is the tight relationship between between elite warriors, field officers and analysts in the intelligence community.

I'm not gonna be so such a conspiracy theorist, snarky lefty, or righty, or whatever, who's gonna call that the Deep State. I call that the intelligent guard dog that keeps you alive and you don't even know it and you don't even care about it.

Maybe you'll play video games about it, or read novels about it, or watch movies about it.

The more time I spend developing a holistic bitter sweet patriotism a holistic national pan ethnic nationalism, american nationalism for myself.

Taking the work of the intelligence community seriously, and appreciating the elite warriors that keep us out of war more than anything, by doing what they gotta do to put out fires around the world.

Whatever corruption there is in all of those areas. The reality is that it, it's easy to be in a peanut gallery, back seat driver, an arm chair quarterback.

Going from being a deep state conspiracy theories critic, I wasn't much of that, but for a lot of people that goes without saying. You have this very toxic hubris and snark.

If you pray to God and thank God for your meal, you should be thanking the intelligence community and the warrior elite for providing national security for you at a reasonable cost.

In the spirit of saying that and being in a position where geopolitics have made me look into this more, it's easy to say we should just all be getting along across the aisle, the left and right, red and blue states, and all this. We should be seeing the bigger enemy, and we should be having solidarity.

This my humble voice, my humble sentiments. It's more just like a vibrational spiritual thing for me to reconcile this internally. To reconcile those extreme tendencies internally, and to actually hold space in my heart for America in a way that that I had not previously.

I was entitled, as an extreme leftist to just be sometimes within my constitutional rights and sometimes exceeding them but not really taking a step back and looking at the container of all that free speech and going, you know what before, I'm gonna bow in and out of this free speech and free expression that I have, I'm gonna bow in and out to those who I mentioned before which is not about any administration and it's not about being a boot licker. It's about the intelligence community and the warrior elite who are the smart and hard men and women personnel, the tip of the spear and the brain of the spear.

I appreciate them, even though I may not always like what they're pointed at, or the choice of targets they're used to attack, but they're defending me and my rights and my freedoms.

Whether they might overreach at times into my privacy or not, is another conversation.

But they do enough day in and day out for me to no longer feel cringy about words like patriotism, from the very radical background that I come from, where it was just a given that you just hated on anything patriotic. Now I see how that doesn't get you very far in life.

There's a way to honor the ancestors of the indigenous people who were conquered and colonized without shading on what now exists. Because there's a world that you wish existed, and there's the world that actually exists. The world that actually exists, of all the countries on it, this isn't the worst one to be in for a lot of reasons, that I don't even need to enumerate right now.

I could never say what it would feel like to be a persecuted refugee seeking political asylum, or otherwise from another country, or just be from a country where I don't have constitutional rights and I don't have the right to bear arms. But so many different policies and laws are so much better.

I just don't know what it's like to be in their shoes. I'm not about to expatriate, I don't have the means to do that safely or even successfully.

I'm not gonna sit here and bite the hand that feeds me and rock the boat that I'm in in a way that's like flippant and disrespectful and just juvenile the way that I did in my juvenile years.

I'm at a point now where I wanna think about peacemaking in the homeland and I wanna think about homeland security in a holistic way, in a permaculture way.

I think about what it would mean if people thought twice about saying anything negative about their fellow American citizen, whether they're a politician or of a different political party or different religion.

I just wanna sit here and meditate and pray and have a vision of what it would be like if people were aware of the consequences and thought about the measurable and immeasurable karmic consequences.

Having no restraint if you're gonna talk about your true feelings about foreign adversaries, there's a threat model to that. In the sport of geopolitics, if you say whatever you want, and throw verbal jabs at our geopolitical enemies, rogue nations, whatever that's one thing.

Though internally, we're an organism as a nation, and we need to not attack each other, we need to have a sort of sacred immunological form of having each other's back at a bare minimum. Public disputes could be more respectfully resolved by saying, we'll talk about that offline, or we'll talk about that in person, or we will not tear each other down and weaken each other with the whole world watching. Our enemies definitely see how weak we are because of how little solidarity we have in public, how little regard we have for each other.

We don't say things like, first and foremost, were American citizens and that means that I would die for your rights and hope you would die for my rights and defend them. And if we were at a bar, I would buy you a drink, and we would settle our differences in a civil manner.

But since we don't have that opportunity, I wanna troll you.

Though we could be bowing in and out, treating people with respect.

When we're forced to operate at our best, sadly, in emergency natural disaster situations, usually that's when people set aside differences.

It's too bad we can't do that more often as a daily practice, as a spiritual practice.

No matter how polar opposite the politics are, the religion's are...

The fact that there are people who would like to see harm done to us, no matter what the nuances of our politics and religion, simply just the fact that we are Americans, that should at some deep level, put us back to back, of having each other's backs.

Having a higher base level of regard and certainly having a security posture in the face of being exposed to the world, even if it's totally self interested.

Some people don't wanna show any respect to their enemies within their own country that they don't agree with who are also citizens?

But what if by not even putting on a veneer of respect in the polity of the internet in the public sphere of the internet you're actually hurting yourself and weakening yourself.

Strategically out of pure self interest, it makes better sense not to attack your fellow American citizen in cyberspace for the whole world to see, because you're signaling American weakness and vulnerability to the whole world, and you are weakening the immune system.

You are giving American national security a fever, a cold, a flu, by being toxic online and insulting people.

The most mature thing to do would be to have a private conversation with somebody, not to call them out, not to cancel them, not to try to get points from social media platforms and to ratio them and all that crazy bs I can't even keep track of.

The mature thing to do would be to say, hey, I think what you're saying or doing is harmful and I would like to have an opportunity to share with you some contrarian thoughts if you would care to entertain them.

That would be a civil way to engage, not to dog pile on to a cancellation campaign or a trolling campaign, or feed into that frenzy.

I remember this was even back before things got crazy with apps and smartphones the Internet.

After 9/11 on the left, some people said, I will not participate in this hate mongering for the what's happening in the administration and the right wing because I'm smarter than that.

It's like feeding into the dark side of the force.

I'm not going to make those protest signs that are hateful and insulting if I'm gonna use the force intelligently.

I'm going to imagine them coming around to our way of thinking peacefully, without insulting them, without degrading them.

I know that's a higher path, that's a higher spiritual vibration to have.

It's tempting to be seduced by all of the rewards that you would get from the dopamine hits to the street credits, the social media credits to dog pile and jump in and all that, to participate in that violent communication against your own fellow citizens, whether they're public officials or not.

I think it's very, very bad form, it's going to weaken our organismic immune system, that creates the national security that we need in times where the enemies of America are only gaining momentum to exploit our weaknesses.

So whether it's because of the spiritual sensibility or it's a totally self interested rational sensibility, they both, at the end of the day, lead to the same place, which is we need really button up our conduct when it comes to having each other's backs in this world.

There's something to be said for the creative energy that comes from the friction of polarity. It's important for there to be debates. It's important for there to be this dance and this friction, all those nuances of politics and religion and ethnicity and whatnot.

There's plenty of ways to engage in those arts without being nasty, without being dehumanizing and if I've learned anything in the last few years, it is that we need each other as Americans to have each other's backs. We need each other now more than ever.

It's a number of hours a week that I dedicate to my due diligence, to be aware of what matters in the intelligence community right now.

I create my own daily briefing, if you will, from my own filtration of sources.

There's plenty of open source intelligence to be done, and there's plenty of great resources out there from think tank feeds, publishing things everyday.

I filter in enough to where I realize that we're chumps if we think that our enemies are our neighbors or at the polls.

We really have got another thing coming when it comes to how weak and disorganized, and pathetic we are in the eyes of our far more disciplined and determined adversaries in the world who are only digging deeper and deeper and deeper positions into our diseased crevices of weakness, it's terrifying.

The good news is, the way to fight back is with that sense of holistic nationalism, that sense of loving thy neighbor that strengthens us and weakens our adversaries. It can only lead to good things.

Now, more than ever, I'll say it again, we've got to have each other's backs.

If anybody asked me and they wanted to have a conversation about it, I could go into grotesque detail about what motivates me to say these very broad and simple terms. Without a lot of scare tactics, without a lot of hyperbole, without a lot of appeals to emotion, it's just very plain simple.

There's more than you want to know, more reasons than you than you want to even know about why I'm saying what I'm saying.

But if I'm coming to the conclusion that we need to bury the hatchet and let some water flow into the bridge and get very serious about having each other's backs and develop some form of a very constructive and holistic way to respect each other as fellow citizens, to have solidarity.

Even without saying it, with eye contact, just demeanor, solidarity and strength shared between us as cells in an organism that need to be on high alert.

I'm talking about a robust, healthy social psychology of holistic nationalism that fosters solidarity and healthy relations between and among us first and foremost, then to be extended to our allies, strategic partners, with an intelligent and wise security posture.

Knowing that every kilo calorie of psychic energy, every nanosecond of time that we use attacking ourselves in an unhealthy and unconstructive manner that is not reconciliatory, not restorative in our ways of seeking justice between and among each other...

There's lots of that work to be done. It could be done in a constructive and restorative and respectful way.

But our enemies abroad and their agents within, they are feasting on the dysfunction that is our auto immune disorder.

I can't believe the social media companies allow these festering wounds to get deeper and worse, and they're actually colluding with those foreign enemies.

I don't wanna turn this into a nightmare. I don't wanna make you lose sleep. To learn what I've learned, studying what I've studied.

We gotta put a set of differences and hold each other to a high standard of integrity, to solidarity among each other.