I'm pleasantly surprised to add this introductory update that clarifies something further in this episode, which is that there's something to celebrate.
Major progress has apparently been made in order to allow for veterans to access cannabis in the states where medicinal cannabis is available.
I'm not gonna enumerate all of the mechanics of that legislation, however. I'm very excited, and it does seem very timely that this topic came up for me.
I will give credit where it’s due for all the people who did all the hard work to get the ball down the field with this issue.
I'm going to be there in any way that I can to support this revolution and victory in the Drug War, this battle won in the Drug War, that brings us closer to drug peace.
I’m going to speak of a powerful form of initiation into what you might call a warrior mindset, or the discipline of the evolving masculine.
The mastery of inner power and strength and will and resolve.
A profound and egregious oversight by the establishment cult of training of warriors, where there is a selection process that attempts to weed out the weak.
I believe there is a potentially applicable risk mitigating, and certainly injury mitigating pathway, for no pun intended, weeding out the weak with cannabis ceremony as a rite of passage. Part of the selection process that is not so much about physical endurance although, that can certainly be integrated. But more so about the quality of character, the quality of resolve, the quality of bravery in the face of adversity.
To create for aspirant who dares to approach its gates of power...the experience of cannabis as a dietary supplement, more so than as a smokeable or vapable substance.
From my anecdotal studies and my reading of the literature, which is not exhaustive by any means, but my understanding, a colloquial understanding, a folkloric understanding, is that edible cannabis is a rite of passage, and it is an extreme ordeal.
The word tactical seems in the zeitgeist to have captured a professionalized and modernized essence of the Samurai or the ninja or the soldier or the street fighter. Everything now is in terms of the marketability and the professional sheen on all those different ways to express the energy.
Without tactics and strategy, you just have violence with no effective purpose, with no effective application.
We're seeing that all over the world. Where it's supposed to be tactical, but what's what ends up happening is neither tactical nor strategic.
You would avoid violence so that you could be successful at a mission as part of a broader strategy, and that the tactics were appropriate in order to be as efficient and as effective as possible and for you to survive and not be apprehended or compromised or injured or killed.
It’s a refinement and getting into the philosophy of that term.
Yes, that's the term that I chose, the term that came to me in my life journey, as I was doing tactical training with professional tactical trainers, who were comprised of some of the best in the world, and who trained some of the best in the world.
And I will not say exactly what organization I did train with, where the term and the concept of tactical permaculture was born. I've mentioned it in the past, but I'm not gonna say exactly the organization that that was with.
They are legal and they are an American organization. So it wasn't like I was doing something I shouldn't have been doing or that the state department wasn't aware of in some other country.
No homegrown extremists that didn't have a fully legitimized, tax paying business, They were conducting legitimate above ground, above board business and one of their employees was the tactical guy and I was the permaculture guy and we were beginning to sit down and look at designing a tactical permaculture design course, site designs, where the permaculture design course and the tactical training course would become a hybrid and become one.
Everything flows from that original conceptual design that was born in 2012, early 2013 era, it was shelved, I guess, partially.
I've been living that to various degrees, but it didn't come back, I didn't revivify that concept until sometime last year. Then this year, I've really decided to take it forward.
Because of the changing geopolitical situation in the world, it felt like it's the time to green the war effort, as it were, because we're not likely to to ratchet down from this point.
So part of that greening the war effort, tactical permaculture…
I do believe that it's my lane, it's my purpose, it's my mission, to operate as a delegate of the insights from the ecological movement and all of the big tent, that it is ecological science, ecological activism, ecological economics, the ecological movement that has come to fruition in the interim between World War Two and now the onset of World War Three.
I say that with total clarity, that there has been this development alongside all of the military industrial complexes, developments of drone warfare and now lasers and hypersonic missiles and disinformation, social media, cyber warfare, all those developments...alongside that, there has been this ecological movement that has developed.
It has been a cold war and peace time global movement that probably only ever conceived of itself as an outgrowth of and a manifestation of the peace movement to end war.
But there are those within the ecological movement who are contracted by the militaries of the world to do at the very least environmental impact assessments of what they're doing on bases, the chemicals that they're using, how they dispose of them.
So unfortunately, the ecological movement, in a military context, has often mostly just been a cover up, try to avoid major lawsuits and liabilities, and try to squeeze through and past the regulations as best as possible with things like getting away with having environmentally egregious diesel emission standards.
There are so many ways in which the military is to my knowledge and my studies, just able to get away with murder ecologically, in terms of what's done to the land, in combat, on bases, and in training.
There's the ecological movements application to the military in terms of cleanup and maybe a little bit of environmental health.
But in terms of tactical application of the ecological movement, I wouldn't consider biological warfare ecological if it's out of an ecosystemic context.
I would just want to acknowledge that there's biology involved, but biology does not equal ecology.
I think that's a fair and clear statement to make. You can you can be very reckless and very harmful in biology without an ecological ethic and mindset and understanding of systems thinking and how things affect each other, nature finds a way.
So think ecologically. Think in terms of systems. Don't think in reductionistic terms of look how powerful I could be with this one isolated element inside of a system.
So tactical application of the fruits of the ecological movement.
Volunteers and conscripts who were smoking ganja out of shotgun pipes and generally finding ways to kill the boredom between engagements in contact with Charlie.
That was the thing, and it was characterized in Western media.
I don't have a lot of personal experience with really being transmitted a lot of wisdom and knowledge from veterans.
It's just been an ambiance that has percolated through the media and obviously, through contact with people throughout my life who were Vietnam veterans.
And as far as I know, it's possible that my father was, but I don't know much about him.
Needless to say, it's all second hand knowledge, so I don't speak for them.
I'm not gonna say that I have a very informed opinion about whether or not being stoned made you a better or a worse shot, marksman, or if it made you more conscious and aware.
There were studies they did about the soldiers who would fire above the enemy because they weren't ready to take a life. Maybe the Ganja had something to do with that. I don't know if it made for more efficient killing or more compassionate disobedience of direct orders. If it led to more fragging, or going AWOL...
I'm sure there is very solid research, it will be an exquisite joy to discover the works that have been done that really focus in the name of understanding the role that cannabis has played.
All the different roles that cannabis has played, at least within the US, the history of the US military and service people.
I'm sure that work has been, I'm sure there have been lots of works.
If my dreams come true, then I will be very well versed in a lot of that literature.
I have met members of organizations that are veteran run, organizations that are doing activism as wounded disabled veterans who are trying to fight for their right to access cannabis, despite restrictions.
I'm not fully aware of the current state of affairs of veteran affairs and prohibition on cannabis. But I believe there is still a lot to be desired, and it is still a long way from where it needs to be, even if progress has been made.
I was very moved by what they had to say to me. They were veterans of recent wars, and they were a very tight knit group.
They were at a booth at a cannabis farmers market in the San Diego area. There was a gravitas and a sense that I'm a civilian, I don't know what I can do. I'm just trying to survive and get by one day at a time, make ends meet, just barely getting by.
But I didn't have this existential threat looming over me that if I were to be caught with cannabis in my urine or blood, then I would lose my veteran benefits and then have to suffer agonizing pain with whatever shrapnel or damaged or missing limb prosthesis treatments that could be denied.
They were telling me some horrific things about what consequences laid before them, and if that we are still in that barbaric state of affairs, we could almost not be further away from where we should be.
Which is what I'm gonna say, is where you get back to a ecological movement and tactical permaculture, where we can discover ways in which cannabis can be instrumental in weeding out the weak, in the induction process, rather than grinding their bones into a powder with very poorly designed ergonomics of equipment.
The way the permaculturalists are trained to think is with ethics and science.
A lot of military selection processes basically make it very sacrificial to where I assume it's the case that once you sign your civilianship away and you become a service member on paper, that from that point forward if you get injured in any facility or any activities whether it's training or a job assignment outside of the a theater of war or being deployed to combat…
That once you sign yourself over and you're in their domain, barring some sort of gross negligence on your part, I believe that basically that guarantees you some form of, some might call it meager, but some form of almost socialistic health insurance for the rest of your life, just because you sign that paper.
I would hope that we would have a more evolved system of medicine.
But I'm not a policy maker. I'll trust the experts on that, but I do believe that we need some reform there at the very least.
My understanding is that if you join the military, the reason that they're able to chew you up and spit you out so remorselessly in this sort of pill mill of, I don't wanna be a conspiracy theorist, or sound like I’ve got a tinfoil hat on...
But as far as I know, a lot of the VA budget is going into pharmaceutical drugs that maybe are doing more harm than good, maybe just maybe doing a lot of liver damage, and maybe even really exacerbating PTSD. Between the uppers and the downers, and the the psych meds.
I know that we could be doing a lot better if the ecological movement, and all of my fellow ecological movement folks...we have a lot of experience with plant medicine, and it's no surprise that there is a synergy, and we’re finding natural allies with the PTSD and disabled veterans.
Psychology and physically disabled and psychologically damaged PTSD surviving veterans and all of us civilians who dedicated ourselves to defending the Earth at home and abroad, holding down the fort, as it were, and not fighting overseas for questionable agendas.
I don't wanna undermine all of that, I don't want to endorse it all either, but it doesn't really matter how I feel or think about it.
The fact is, we have so much work to do on in our own country, the idea of doing anything other than healing ourselves as a nation before engaging in forever wars abroad…
I always felt that way and I'm invigorated by the veterans of the global war on terror who are now also saying that after they come back and they're shell shocked, and the VA pill mill won't let them use any form of cannabis and the VA pill mill will not allow use of any schedule one entheogens.
So the warriors of the global war on terror have brought the war home, and now they're fighting on my side of the Drug War. Go figure.
So how do you get more buy-in if they don't care that it's a cleaner greener solution for pain management and for psychological suffering to be alleviated.
If they don't care about the, “right of the bang”, as it were, maybe they care about left of the bang.
And that's where I wanna get into the tactical application of medicines like Ganja.
Because if the military industrial complex can become the military horticultural complex, okay then there will be a way for a higher standard.
Before you discover that an individual’s skeletal structure is not within a range of statistical medically measurable data points to safely carry a rucksack and to do rock runs and to go through a certain qualification courses...rather than discovering that as a result of people being crippled for life...less crippling ways to determine the suitability and the load capacity of an individuals skeleton...the frame of an individual and what they are well suited to carry.
For there to be some nuance to that...I think that makes a lot of sense. But if, you have all the taxpayers budget to just put people into the pill mill after you crush their bones to discover what you could have found out by screening them earlier, and say, either we use you for missions where you're the little guy, and you go into those little places, and that's what you're good for.
And so you get to be a part of the team for that reason.
I don't know all the ins and outs. All I know is that I've heard some of my mentors that are former green berets say that it was very unfair, that they would be given the same size pack to jump out of an airplane with somebody almost twice their size in terms of body mass, just so they would be loaded up more so that they would drop at the same rate.
And the damage that was done to their knees and their back and their neck because of things like that.
That's what happens in the absence of the ethic of people care.
So tactical permaculture would change the way that we fight wars and change the way that we write the international laws and conventions of war.
And what are war crimes? I mean, can it be a war crime the way you train your soldier?
Is it a war crime to crush the bones of a young teenager applicant, well that's being litigated right now because people continue to die in training and there's enough visibility on it now and there's enough push back, probably only due to social media of all things.
I don't wanna think of it as a softening and a weakening, to think about redesigning this. I don’t want the drill sergeants and all the different instructors to be afraid to do what they know they've got to do in order to weed out the weak.
There would have to only be the people who are capable of executing the mission without hesitation, otherwise more people will die than necessary on all sides.
I would be scared of that being too litigious will result in people being afraid to do their job, which is to weed out the weak.
So again, I think it is very useful to put on our permaculture designer hat here, our permaculture design beret.
99 hours of design to 1 hour of work, not 99 hours of work after 1 hour of design.
If people are getting injured just to discover whether or not they physical, the psychological...whether they packed the gear to serve in the beloved corps, as it were.
I don't know what exactly the physical equivalence would be, whether it's training in water or training on sand, or basically having some sort of system that says, this is what the optimal load is for this person’s frame. That's how we're going to deploy them if they prove themselves to be useful and outstanding in other regards.
But I don't pretend to have any insight to share on the physicality part of it but I will say on the psychological part of it, because I have done this training and I've done this testing on myself.
Where an individual’s weaknesses are, where an individual’s panic point is, psychologically, that gets revealed within 30 minutes of a moderate to high dose of edible cannabis, a cannabis butter product or a cannabis oil product. I will speak from my experience and say, coconut oil that is infused with cannabis, leaf or flower, using various recipes, proportions, various degrees of heat, over various degrees of time. I've brushed my teeth with it, I have done oil pulling with it.
I've done all kinds of body work and massage with it, and used on the scalp.
One of my naturalist, herbalist, former partners, said one of the most profound things about coconut oil, she said, I can put it pretty much everywhere. I won't say explicitly all the words that she said about where she could put it, but it included, you know, places below the waist and, and included the eyes, included the mouth.
And some people have different results from applications, different places.
I'm not giving any medical advice. You would have to consult your physician before doing anything that I'm talking about.
But when she said that to me, and I said, I've been using this in all these different ways, it is such a gift.
There is a big difference between being baked and vaping and smoking and what that does in terms of consuming cannabis through the lungs. There's a big difference.
I think everybody would agree. I don't think anyone would disagree, that it's night and day, the difference.
There are similar aspects, the body high versus the head high. They’re very different, and it's different for everybody across the strains.
But what is pretty typical and even comedic, across most anecdotal conversations you'll have with people, they all remember the “edible face” where were tricked by how delicious the cookie or the candy or the brownie was.
And whereas my theory is that in order to train moderation with edibles, because they are so powerful, they should be in very bitter and pungent and sour and spicy foods, that you will not be tempted to eat more than the minimal, effective dose.
Sadly, there's this twisted conspiracy to put it in the most binge worthy, delicious, delectable treats so that you over consume and therefore end up regretting it very quickly.
And my favorite lament from the over-consumption of a sweet edible was from a friend who said, I'm thinking everything at once.
That was the most tortured sounding thing. It wasn't, like sobbing and tears and crying but it in some ways that does sound very tortuous. I can relate to that.
I can relate to the in my far less masterful earlier days when it wasn't a regular practice and it was a very rare thing. I was never a daily smoker, I never really had a budget set aside for it to be part of my life.
Cannabis throughout all of my life has almost always been something where it was offered to me or gifted to me, that was the only way it was my life.
I literally could almost count on one hand the amount of times I've paid for that medicine.
I do talk about national security from time to time And I will say that it comes straight from the recruiter of the CIA, from the CIA's canonical podcast, the official one, where it's been stated, I may be paraphrasing, but to the effect of, for those interested in applying to the CIA, if you have maybe some experimentation of sorts in your background, or maybe some file downloading of sorts in your background, just stop now.
Also, if you listen to Pod Save the World, they talk about dope smoking antics in the White House and in their security clearance interviews. They have me in stitches when they talk about those experiences.
And so I don't know how far reaching it is. We all know about the Willie Nelson story, that's about as much as I wanna say about anything that far on the East coast.
I'm here on the West coast, and I'm gonna keep a very West coast.
But the point of all that is to say, for me, I have not been excessive with this, and I have done most of my deep research after it became fully legitimate and legal for me to do my deep research. And still it cost me almost nothing. Because the bang for the buck that you get by taking the cannabis flower or leaf that you would have smoked or vaporized, and to preserve it in an oil after being fully dried...
Of course, that's an important consideration because of certain potential issues with any water loving microorganisms not being killed by the process of dehydration.
It's important to dry all herbs before they go into any oils.
But by doing that, the mileage that you get out of not smoking and vaporizing it is much more.
For me, smoking or vaping is a very undesirable state of mind that I don’t want to be in, because it's so debilitating for me to function doing anything in that mode.
And of course, disclaimer, no operation whatsoever of motor vehicles or heavy equipment under any amount of influence of these substances is ever legal or advisable period.
So when I say tactical permaculture, I'm not talking about the soldiers in Vietnam.
That's not my domain to talk about.
What about the operation of deadly weapons under the influence? That’s not my interest. My interest is in sharing these thoughts, that training and weeding out the weak, the psychologically weak can be done with cannabis.
If somebody is weak. If during a heroic dose of a cannabis edible, they panic, they go fetal, curl into a ball, lose their mind, and basically revert into a state of infantile terror. I've been there, believe me, I can speak about it. I have people who've witnessed it, and I wouldn't be panicking and screaming and flailing and crying, or being curled up totally fetal in a ball, maybe somewhat, but mainly just being completely silent.
But what was going on internally in those early experiences...what that person said, I'm thinking everything at once, that was their way of saying what I might say a in a little more nuanced way… I'm going through this file scanning on my deep subconscious hard drive.
Whereas, in my default mode network of my brain, in my work-a-day world, in the ego construct that I am getting by with, to just drive and get from one place, get from point A to point B, pay bills, maybe be in a relationship, maybe hold on a job. Maybe stay out of trouble, maybe just survive in the concrete jungle.
That very thin layer of consciousness that is dwarfed by the size and depth and scope of the subconscious mind...
The the edible cannabis experience, often vastly more so, for some reason than the smoked experience, which just seems like if you smoke too much, maybe you get paranoid, but probably you just get so dumb that you just become inoperable.
But the edible experience, I know for myself and I think for a lot of people, it takes them almost into a entheogenic altered state where they're being shown things.
They're being taken on a journey through the subconscious where there's a an internal inquiry and internal inquest as to what faulty assumptions your default mode network is really operating on. What faulty logic based on bad intentions or ill will are unquestioned.
Reactive, knee jerk emotional patterns, basically the shadow, right? The Jungian shadow.
You're in the swamp of your Jungian shadow, and you're physically sort of tenderized to the point where you can't very easily get up and be distracted doing something, you're just in it, you're just so in it.
And now in regards to that barrier which does get does get pierced and traversed by other entheogens...cannabis is generally less of a risk than other entheogens, which may be far more visually terrifying in that process of confronting the shadow.
So, cannabis, it's a gateway drug, but I'm not saying that in the way that the D.A.R.E. program was saying, and I'm saying it in the way of the positive sense that, yes, it's a gateway drug.
And thank God it is because that's where you can train up, that's where you can skill build.
You will feel your demons, but you will be spared the terror and horror of seeing them the way that other entheogens effect more of the visual cortex.
I could say third eye, but I'm not gonna say third eye, but I did say third eye.
It's so important to think about these gates, because if the gateway drug of cannabis into an exploration of getting strapped in and locked into a roller coaster ride, into the not so fun house, into the haunted house…
I remember going on haunted house amusement park rides where it was just like getting on a roller coaster. You were locked into that seat, and then you went through terrifying experience of a roller coaster haunted house, if you will.
So let's think of it like that, the gateway drug that gives you that experience of internal journeying into the shadow.
It's like going through a haunted house with a blindfold versus going into a haunted house without a blindfold.
That's the difference between the gateway drug experience of a cannabis internal shadow journey and a what shall we say would be a mescaline, tryptamine based, or ergot based journey.
All of the different spirit molecules, if you will, those tend to rip that blindfold off. But the beauty of cannabis is that it kind of leaves it on for you.
It's not so highly, potentially re-traumatizing because of all the visuals that can happen.
So I think that cannabis work is an important initiatory gateway, a filter, a selection tool, not only for, the called neo-shamanic path of spiritual warriors, but also for combat on the physical plane.
For combat on the astral plane, it's a very useful tool for training and for combat on the physical plane, I would have to defer to the combat veterans who know better than I do, because I'm a civilian, and I've never been licensed to kill in that way, or licensed to defend with weapons past a certain civilian grade, shall we say.
But if we're talking about any filtering process to determine who is a strong, hardened, strong minded, strong willed, brave, erect spine, not going to crumple up like a tin can or curl up into a little ball and go fetal in the face of any adversity...
I would rather know that someone entering a group environment, a team environment, where high stakes and high risks, danger, and people's lives are on the line, whatever that activity...
It could be the fire department, maybe the fire department doesn't let you on unless you pass a edible cannabis bravery test.
And maybe they already do, and it's just called hazing, right?
But I think, officially, and I'm not running for any office, I'm not writing any laws to try to mandate this, but I think there should be space for research in this area, and possibly a college of war dedicated to cannabis, that would be tactical permaculture.
Like Project Jedi and other experiments that were done.
There are a few ways that this can evolve and develop. There are people right now who are former Green berets that have online academies for the next generation to train as hard as they can with the tutelage of former Green Berets and former Rangers.
They're teaching the mindset, and the fitness, the types of running you have to do, the types of weight you would have to train with in a rucksack, everything you can do to prepare for before these qualification courses.
You have graduates of the courses, veterans who were former Rangers and Green Berets, who are actually teaching this to the civilians who wanna go and they wanna pass.
So in the world I see, if you show up to your gateway drug, cannabis, edible personhood test…Do you have your person card? You don't, you don't have your person card? If you don't do your cannabis test and you do your cannabis test before you are ever given a weapon or before we put backbreaking and bone crushing weight on your back...
We need to know what you're made of, psychologically, whether or not you're going to lose your mind under pressure.
And we can probably save our vocal chords a little bit and a little bit of our spittle, not to have to scream in your face so much to determine whether or not you pack the gear psychologically as it were.
In the ecological movement, that's where I come from, the ecological warrior movement, we're big on ceremony, and I know the military and all of its branches all throughout the world, they're very big on ceremony.
They're very big on it. So why not craft a ceremony of initiation, where this obstacle course of ingesting cannabis and doing the math and having physicians on site, and who are capable of doing very meticulous work to try to do their best, make a best effort with their duty of care, to ensure that the doses are appropriate and to do appropriate screening for things like schizophrenia, bipolar and other issues that can be triggered by this.
But this is part of that discovery process.
Cannabis would be a tool to weed out the weak, more so than a questionnaire where everybody can B.S. whether or not they hear voices, whether or not they've had urges to kill or harm themselves or others...all the things that are that are out of the DSM, all of the psychological psychiatric screening questionnaires and whatnot.
People can B.S. that knowing that they're lying, or they could B.S. it without knowing that they're lying.
But either way, there is one guaranteed way to know whether or not someone is going to crack before putting them to the test in life and death situations, it's not been, to my knowledge, very well studied in a tactical context, which is cannabis left of bang, not necessarily at the bang, which is another area of study that could be explored, and perhaps has been.
Obviously, not right of the bang, where most of the exploration and study is happening.
I'm talking left of bang, cannabis research, most significantly to save people's physical bodies and filter out the weak minds and the potentially, sadly, unfortunately, debilitated, if not deranged minds, using the cannabis ceremony as a filter to weed out the weak.
I know it does. I know from experience that you can't judge somebody's strength based on one and only one exposure to that experience, because I think it will make a crying fetal mess out of almost anybody, no matter how tough of a tough guy or gal you think you are that first time.
There's nothing else in life that could have prepared you for it.
It takes a relationship with the spirit of the plant over time to create a peace treaty internally between those forces within you that would push all of your shadow material in your face, albeit blindfolded, or the third eye being blindfolded rather.
But continual exposure over time, for me, it's been over the course of many years, almost ten years, to where it's been a part of my life ceremonially, to where I feel that I found a proper balance, where the alleviation of physical aches and pains from being a eco warrior who sacrifices my back on a daily basis to do the good work of healing the land and fortifying the land...the cannabis is helping alleviate suffering and so I can survive and soldier on through the pain.
Knowing that I have respite in the hands of this medicine, knowing that it can be applied internally and externally.
That is a force multiplier. It allows me to continue in the face of pain, continue to function.
That's tactical, and equally, if not more importantly, the psychological aspects, I would be able to speak from experience and say, those early phases of confronting the garbage that has piled up, the thing that you do over the course of a ceremonial practice. Over the course of however long it takes, to be quite honest, is you start sorting through that garbage, psychic garbage.
You start performing sanitation services within your own shadow, and eventually get to a point where you have more clarity than confusion.
I have achieved that personally, and I find greater and deeper insights.
If I up the dosage, fearlessly, bravely up the dosage in order to go for more deep sea fishing, for more profound insights and ideas, because I cleaned up the trash, I cleaned up all of the mess, and if there's mess to clean up, then that will appear, and I will have the tools to to deal with it.
But it will likely be less, it won't be a lifetime or lifetimes of accumulated mess.
I've already worked through that. So it's fresh mess that's smaller and easier to deal with.
Then it's deeper insights. And I will say that this moment that I'm sharing with you right now, it’s the fruit of a moment where I broke down at the end of previous online persona, the end of my previous brand that I kind of broke up with in a way commercially and spiritually and and whatnot artistically I kind of broke up with my previous brand and was in a state of being a bit distraught and feeling kind of stuck creatively and financially.
I was consuming cannabis daily to deal with pains and actually slow myself down because I had some lacerations, some pretty nasty lacerations all over my hands from this epic mission that I spoke about previously, but I said to myself I'm gonna get deeply infected.
It's gonna be a problem if I don't use this medicine to slow myself down.
So I slowed myself down, and for the first time ever, I was matching nighttime doses with morning doses.
We're talking about when you used to get a spoonful of cough syrup that's kind Of how I do my various degrees of potency ganja infused coconut oil, just by tea spoon so obviously it depends on the potency of the ratio…
Thedarkness of the oil is what it comes down to, really, but a teaspoon in the morning and teaspoon at night.
There was a day that I said to myself, I need answers that come from a deeper place than my conscious ego.
I'm looking for direction. I need guidance. I'm gonna ask for guidance.
So I’m going to double my dose during the day.
I was frustrated and feeling not necessarily lost, but just lacking guidance.
And I felt like, what do I need to do next?
What's the best application of all of my life energy and all of my studies?
And I have financial freedom now. I'm free from being a renter.
I'm free from being an employee. I'm a land owner, I work for myself, doing whatever I feel like.
And I don't know if what I feel like doing is gonna provide me with fresh income.
And I do need kind of a little bit to just hum along now in my financially free early retirement paradise that I've created. I wanna sustain that. I need a little bit of fresh income to do it.
So what am I gonna do next now that I've dissolved my previous brand, which was bringing in revenue, but that I wasn't wanting to sustain for various reasons.
Right after I took that second dose, almost like I didn't even have to, it came to me, my direction, my marching orders for this next chapter of my life, which involves this show right now.
I don't wanna be as grandiose as to say that I heard a voice but the linguistically structured thought form insight if you will, the teletype, the morse code, whatever it was, whatever you wanna call it.
The message was in a linguistic format.
What you should be doing? You should be building tools.
Immediately, I knew what that meant, because I had just spent the last several months really getting down the fundamentals of writing in the computer software code languages of Python and Javascript, to where I felt like now I finally understand how infinite the possibilities are.
Once you understand these the deep core fundamentals of computer science and data structures.
And the way that across all the code languages, there's different dialects, basically, I guess, is one way to put it.
There's different dialects of data structures and how you write functions and how you end the line, how you start a line, and what a curly bracket does, and what a square bracket does and what a semi-column does and all these things that vary across code languages and once you become somewhat literate…
Now I think of solving a problem that involves information or display of any kind, graphically, or teaching anything, building simulators to teach anything.
I can build an application that solves a problem or create a tool, that I can conceive.
If I can't do that already with the skills and knowledge I have then I can, then I have the wherewithal now and the vocabulary now, and enough experience to be able to not be intimidated by the process of learning new things that I don't know, and be constantly evolving and expanding.
So for me, the tactical permaculture, weeding out my weakness, which was becoming distraught over quitting my old job that I hired myself to do, and then being a little bit distraught and being unemployed from my own business.
Tactically maneuvering with the help of cannabis, to discover that my mission is to build tools, which I have been doing.
I take pride in my work and its works in progress.
The tools I’m building have a lot of room to grow, but they're out there, they're on my website and I'm living proof that you can grow beyond the chrysalis, and metamorphosis of becoming a edible cannabis caterpillar to an edible cannabis butterfly that grows your wings as you go from that fetal cocoon of your early edible cannabis experiences.
If you don't give up there, and you have the bravery and you pack the gear, then you will, or I will say, I'm one example of someone who has transcended the place where a lot of people turn back and never go again.
That's good for them. I wouldn't push anybody further, just like I hear about the way they teach those qualification course obstacle courses and ruck runs and whatnot.
The instructors will be there alongside you, and just say, hey, wow, you're throwing up, you're gagging, you're puking, you're sweating, you got blisters, you can't move, you're shaking.
Do you wanna quit? You ready quit. You wanna quit today.
You wanna quit tomorrow.
And it's the people who, of their own volition, whatever it is, that they discover, that they find, they reach into their bowels, their guts, their heart, and they just say no, I'm not a quitter.
The ones that don't end up crippled for life, they keep going.
They make it. Well, that's why there's a very small percentage of the world population that gets into those teams. There are very few people who are willing to go all the way, and very few people are physically capable of going all the way.
The ones that get lucky physically by not being destroyed by the course, and the ones that did the work beforehand to be less likely to be physically ruined by it and and more likely to be psychologically prepared...
I think there's interesting edge to explore, where you see what can be accomplished, explore what can be accomplished by the application of edible cannabis to weed out the weak in all sectors of life, with the caveat that it's not to be coercive and not to be forced upon someone.
But rather to be a gradient over time, and ideally, something that people would be training up to before the qualification course, before making sure that they know what's gonna be asked of them for studying before the exam, right?
So study yourself, if you dare, and possibly consult whoever you need to consult.
I know nothing about preparing anyone to join any force in the military, but I know that I've always been a member of paramilitary forces, and we have always had hazing, and we've always had those among us who keep competitive traditions alive.
It goes with a territory in the ecological warrior movement.
It was just the culture. It was the ambiance. If you couldn't hold down your liquor and hold down your cannabis, you were not gonna bond deeply with your potential fellow warriors who could smoke and drink and eat edible cannabis, do all those things and put you under the table so that you would just be laughed at.
You would be weeded out because you would be considered unfit to serve on the front lines.
Of course, I respect the straight edge folks who resisted and rebelled against all of that, but I come from, the more adventurous of realms.
I'm going to certainly continually personally weed out my weaknesses with this path and ongoing whenever I'm responsible for the development of someone else who aspires to cultivate any of what I have personally cultivated there will be, they say, eat your asparagus before you eat your ice cream, right?
If everybody wants the sparkly roller coaster rides into the funhouse, I'm would withhold those experiences as a mentor or a guide until after quite a bit of cannabis work was done, because turning back from the results of an ill fated cannabis path, or trying to walk the cannabis the edible cannabis path, and then deciding that you that you don't pack the gear, you can turn back before the point of no return...which is other gateways into other dimensions with other substances.
It's better to know that you're not cut out for any of these paths at that gateway.
It's no joke that it can stir up the latent potential for people with clinically diagnosable yet phantom mental illnesses.
There are no reliable bio markers that have been discovered, so you can’t prick your thumb and know whether or not you should ever touch cannabis or any other entheogens, because you are genetically predisposed to bipolar schizophrenia, OCD, or anything else.
People in the entheogenic movements, whether above ground or underground, all know the importance of pre-screening, but usually it's just a written self-evaluation because there are no bio marker blood tests yet for an individual’s propensity to have a cannabis or entheogen induced onset those conditions.
But I would 10 times out of 10 rather it be a mild edible cannabis test that reveals that there are issues that an individual should be instructed, that they need to turn back, and that they can't qualify to proceed.
I will rather it be cannabis than something far more mind blowing where you can't put the lid back on after that.
I think with cannabis, it's a lot easier to put the lid back on someone's mind than it is with a lot of other things.
A lot of people leap frog over a deeper cannabis practice, and they leap frog into things that are far more dangerous.
The activism that veterans are doing, to get the right to be healed by cannabis, and entheogens right of the bang...
Hopefully we sort all this out, and hopefully we take good care of ourselves and each other and be good horticulturalists all along the way.